It's an intriguing question. And when followed with, 'Who are you trying to prove it to', is likely to send someone, at least someone like me, into a tailspin.
At work the other day, after
receiving rave reviews of my recent presentation ; ) , I got into a conversation with some of the people in my department's about direction and purpose. All of them were saying how they just kind of fell into their current careers haphazardly, or because they happened to be good at something, whether or not they actually wanted to do it. They talked about how they had never done any guided introspective thinking to find out what they really wanted out of life.
This blew me away.
I have done countless 'personal mission' and 'vision' sessions either as a facilitated workshop or in a group- and these people are twice my age! I consider myself to have pretty good direction in life. I know what I want, and how I want to get there. But I wouldn't have figured that out if I hadn't gone about it in a deliberate way.
But this goals, plans, etc- these things that I have down pat- they are really an entirely different question than the subject line. And frankly, that is one that makes me question all of it, just a little. I still want all the things that I have always wanted. But what's the reason behind that? Who am I trying to prove myself to? Maybe this means that I am chasing all the wrong dreams- or rather, the right ones, but for the wrong reasons. Is that really any better?
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